ME: 3 Months Post Baby

I remember scouring Pinterest and the web while I was pregnant trying to find real, honest blog posts about the mom post baby. It was hard. Everything that was written was just about the baby and most of all there were no photos of the naked post partum belly (btw I totally get that now.. you forget you exist). I wanted to see what real women looked like after having a baby so I had something to compare myself to other than the VS models who rock the runway 8 weeks after!!!

So prepare yourself, I have taken some photos. As tempting as it was to suck in the belly, I just relaxed and let it be. The whole point is to be honest right?

Here goes..

Yikes! You can't tell just how soft and squishy it is in the pictures..but you get the idea.

Well..it is what it is. I would love to have more time in the gym. It's like a vacation..but I have yet to be brave enough to take the baby with me. I just picture finally getting in there. Getting my little station set up. Getting the baby a station set up. And then having her go ballistic!

Each week I tell myself I will try..and then Avelyn has a meltdown at home and I say.."Next Week". Ha!

Anyway, I will be going to the beach in almost exactly three weeks so this tummy will at least get some sunshine.

So what's new with me after having a baby? Where do I even begin? I am sure I won't really capture the total change but the first thing I noticed was how incredibly SELFISH I was. That was the biggest reality check. I went from doing whatever I want, whenever I want...to now having to plan a week in advance and still having it not happen in the end.

I also learned that I am much more patient that I thought I could be. I have a pretty long buffer time in which the baby can lose her mind and I keep mine. After about 3 hours though, I start melting down. This usually translates into me not talking at all and just crying to myself. Thankfully, the rough days were few even in the beginning and they are farther and farther apart now.

I think the most important thing I have learned is unconditional love. This one thing has changed everything about me! I finally understand how God feels about me..and you! Let me tell you, once you try to wrap your head around this...it's very difficult to be angry or judge people. I start thinking, "what if that was my child...". This in turn causes me to cry every time the news comes on. Especially in light of the Boston bombings....and the 8 year old boy...and even the 19 year old bomber. What if that was my child? Watching the news literally breaks my heart.

This is just a glimpse of how God's heart breaks for us Every Day. This love...it is the single most powerful thing in existence.